Forgive and forget; self-preservation or self-esteem?

[vila_restal]

"What's more important--self-preservation or forgiveness?

Eh? That's an odd choice. I mean, why can't you have both? And d'you mean forgiving others, or them forgiving you?

They're both important.

Me, I plan to live forever or die trying. That's always been one of my major goals, but if I had to do it at the expense of a friend's life... well I just couldn't. I've thought about that one often enough, you know, remembering how I hid in a tiny space on a certain overloaded shuttle hoping I wasn't found. Never occurred to me to chuck Avon off, but I have to be honest--it isn't because I'm so altruistic (after all, I didn't exactly offer to jump out). For one thing, I hate violence, for another, I'd have had to spend the rest of my life knowing what I'd done. Better to die than live with that.

I'd never have forgiven myself.

Ah. So I suppose I've answered that question. It's forgiveness.

I forgave Avon for it, you know. It made sense, didn't it--why should both of us die? And anyway, hating someone isn't good for the digestion or a decent night's sleep, and I do like to look after myself.

Comments

[kerr-avon.livejournal.com]

Oh, don't tell Vila he's safe with me. That's a sore point with us, I'm afraid. But he is, actually... well, as safe as is consistent with our avocations (stirring up a galaxy wide Federation like a hornet's nest) and our vocations (enriching ourselves at the expense of others.) As I've tried to tell him, I'm a changed man... not necessarily for the better, but changed. Then again, Vila doesn't like change.

[vila-restal.livejournal.com]

Avon, you shouldn't say things in my own journal where I have all the access codes, you know.

I do like change actually, if it's for the better. And you're safe with me too, though I can't promise your safe is. [grins]

[kerr-avon.livejournal.com]

Vila, I know computers. I always assume anything input on one might as well be on a vid billboard in Main Dome. Unless it's security locked... and even then... nothing is safe from a truly adept hacker.

The next time I go shopping I'll get a safe, just for you. Can't guarantee the contents, though.

[vila-restal.livejournal.com]

Ooh! I like surprises!

[londo-mollari.livejournal.com]

Change, my dear Sir, is rarely accepted by one's friends, or enemies for that matter. And only a fool would promise complete safety in a galaxy that sounds quite similar to my own. Be that as it may, I am relieved to hear that relations between you and the estimable Vila Restal are of an amicable nature now.

[kerr-avon.livejournal.com]

Your galaxy is similar to mine? My condolences, then. Yes, Vila and I are, at the moment at least, returned to our previous level of total understanding and harmony... {cough} ... yes, Vila, I know you're listening.